Last night was Wine Wednesday for the wives and female Soldiers in Hubster’s class. I was invited and reluctantly said yes. It’s not that I didn’t want to go, I just don’t handle strangers and social situations well. I only really know two of the wives from the class, and meeting new people seriously freaks me out.
I spent all of yesterday afternoon silently freaking out. Like butterflies in my stomach, heart in my throat, I hope I don’t pee on myself freaking out. I even had to Google social anxiety to check if that’s what my problem was. It turns out, that’s not exactly my issue. According to Wikipedia (the know all, be all of life), social anxiety has to do with the discomfort and concern of being judged by others. Honestly, I couldn’t care less what people think of me. I just prefer to sit in my hermit shell and not speak. I ended up being so nervous, that I left the house without eating dinner. There was plenty of food at Wine Wednesday, so it wasn’t a major deal.
When I got to the house where the event was being held, I didn’t see the cars of the ladies I know. Panic mode! I slowly walked towards the door and rang the bell. Once I was in, it really wasn’t that bad. I felt even better as soon as I had a glass in my hand. I
swear think I’m not an alcoholic.
My peeps showed up a short while later, and all was well. I chatted a bunch and made a new friend. Events like this are never as bad as I make them out to be in my head. I’m going to have to start getting used to it any way. I’ll never make friends in Hawaii if I don’t push myself out of my comfort zone.
Is anyone else nervous about talking to strangers like I am?
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