With less than a month to go until my due date, I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t fucking terrified. John went into panic mode last night and started making lists of everything that needs to be done. At first, I found it pretty hilarious, and then it hit me that pretty soon, I’m going to have to evict this little creature. While Hubs is worried about stuff like furniture being set up and car seats being installed, I’m over here freaking out about labor.
Yesterday’s ultrasound ended up going well. After poking my lady parts, the ultrasound tech was able to determine that a c-section probably won’t be necessary. In all honestly, I was actually kind of hopeful for the c-section since it’s an entirely controlled experience being run by doctors and not my body surprising me. The tech also measured the baby’s head and everything appeared to be normal. My doctor also said that everything looked fine head-wise at my appointment the day before that.
The one concern from this appointment was that my fluid seemed kind of low. More than likely my fault though since I’m not the greatest at keeping myself hydrated. Don’t worry, I’ve been chugging water ever since. I go back next week again to see if levels have risen, and if not, they might induce me then.
After the possibility of a c-section pretty much being tossed away, an induction would be the most preferable option. When I say that I’m fucking terrified, I mean FUCKING TERRIFIED of going into labor somewhere that is not a hospital. With Adri there was exactly one hour and 34 minutes from the time that I started feeling contractions to the time that she was born.
So now I wonder, was I actually having contractions before then but they weren’t strong enough for me to feel them? WTF does a contraction feel like? I mean, I know what the ones that make you want to castrate your husband feel like. What about the milder ones? Did I just feel a contraction? WTF are Braxton Hicks? Am I actually in labor right now?
This waiting game is going to give me major anxiety. In the mean time, there really isn’t much I can do. I’m supposed to be staying off my feet, but let’s see if I can get anything from John’s list accomplished today. Even if it’s just washing the car seat cover and hosing down the cracker crumb covered base.
36 week bumpdate will be up tomorrow!! (: